SexHerald: I hate saying controversial, but whenever there’s anything written about you, that word is used to describe you in some way. What do you feel is the most misunderstood thing about you?

Christian XXX: I think the most misunderstood thing would have to be the fact that . . . people don’t recognize that I understand that if something happens to me it affects hundreds of people in our business. And, for me not to recognize that fact is mind-boggling.

SH: Tell me then: What words would you use to describe who Christian is?

Christian: I’m someone who’s a realist. Not cynical but pretty close. I would say I’m not very sentimental. I’m very, I guess, levelheaded in terms of doing things. I don’t just do things without thinking them through first. I know that I’m—I would say—determined. I’m persistent. I don’t just start things and then stop. When I put my mind to something, I just do it.

SH: In your blog (www.christiansingstheblues.com), you’ve recently blogged about friends in the business. How there have been some who have turned on you. But, you also talked about who your closest friends are in the business. What’s your definition of a friend?

Christian: First off, I don’t think they turned on me. I just think that circumstances and events changed the relationship. In this business, the word ‘friend’ is a term that’s used fast and loose. Because really, really, you have a lot of acquaintances. You don’t really have a lot of friends because this business is such a business that doesn’t really . . . really, everyone is out for themselves. Most relationships are very symbiotic, I guess; where people help you because it helps them, too. I think if somebody says they have a lot of friends in this business, that’s kind of false. What they mean is they have a lot of acquaintances. There’s nobody in this business that has more than 2 or 3 real friends. By friend, I mean someone who wouldn’t sell you down the river for an extra $500, $600 for themselves. Which I guess is kind of cynical. [laughs] There you go.

SH: It’s healthy to have some cynicism. Do you hold grudges?

Christian: Sometimes I do. The thing is, I just value logic. I think that if you do things that are illogical, that really pisses me off. That means you don’t think things through or you don’t have the mental IQ to think things through. So later on, I’m going to bring that up again. Like: “Hey, do you remember when you did this or said this, and how ridiculous that was?” So, do I hold grudges? I would have to say yeah because I don’t like people to forget about the illogical things they’ve said or done.

SH: If a friend did something that was illogical, as you said, and sincerely apologized for it to you, could you be friends with that person again?

Christian: In some sense. This is a business that doesn’t lend itself to being close friends with anybody. So I think you kind of keep everybody at arms length no matter what, just because of the way the business is. So yeah, I can be on a friendly level—because I don’t think you really let a lot of people in anyway. It’s different.

SH: The relationship would be different.

Christian: Yes and no. Again, it wasn’t like I was giving him rides to the airport in the first place. Most people, when you’re talking about friends, I told you, it’s mostly about acquaintances. So yeah, I’d be acquaintances again. We’d talk every so often, but that would be about the extent of it.

SH: When you started your career in porn, you started off doing gay scenes. Had you been with men before then? Was it something you’d considered doing in your personal life?

Christian: I never considered it in my personal life. But I was at a point where the money looked good, and to be honest when you’re a civilian and you have no knowledge of the porn business, and you see that there’s so much porn out there, you think one movie, who’s going to know? You don’t think to yourself: “Hey, five years from now I might be in a place where that one movie . . .” or, what you do is going to be scrutinized. You don’t think about that. You don’t know to think about that, because you’re brand new.

SH: You’ve also said that you considered yourself a “sexual chameleon.” Can you explain what you meant by that?

Christian: I just mean that when somebody offers you the opportunity to do something in a movie or on camera, I think you’re going outside of who you really are as a person. So, I just have always felt like I can do pretty much anything on camera because it’s the role that you are playing for that length of time. Especially when it’s something that you haven’t tried or experienced before, I think it’s good to get that experience.

SH: When you hear about a girl who won’t work with you because of you’re past work in gay porn, performing with transsexuals, how does that make you feel personally?

Christian: Every male performer, whether it’s me or anyone else, thinks that every girl should like them. That’s not just me, that’s everybody. There isn’t a male performer in this business that is not upset when a girl won’t work with them because every male performer thinks he’s a nice guy who does good scenes and is fun to have sex with. That’s just natural for males. I don’t think my views when a girl won’t work with me are any different than anybody else. The only thing that makes me different is, instead of most guys having one or two girls that won’t work with them—and that reason being their cock’s too big, they just don’t have good chemistry, they dated their best friend—something that doesn’t really mean much. But for me, you got to remember that I have to deal with it every week.

So for me, the first 50 times, no problem. If you don’t want to work with me, I’ll get over it. Now it’s just such a . . . I don’t get it. I don’t think I’m ugly. I don’t think I do bad scenes. I don’t think I’m hard to work with. So, what’s your reason? Do you know what I’m saying? What do you care what I’ve done before the scene. I guess I don’t understand. My tests are always good. My tests have been good since 2004. So, why single me out for things I’ve done on camera? I just don’t like getting singled out. That’s my whole point: I don’t like being singled out. I’ve come to terms with it. I know it’s going to happen and it’s not going to stop. Obviously, after four something years it’s still an issue. I’ve come to terms with the fact that it’s something that’s always going to happen.

I realize it’s always going to be an issue. My point is, have some logic. If I never met you and you never worked with me, that’s one thing. I think it’s still retarded because again, my test is good. You read my blog; you know I work every day with all kinds of different girls. So, I don’t understand. I don’t get it. There’s no logic behind it is why it bothers me. No logic at all. And I realize you don’t have to have logic. Every girl can work with whomever she chooses, that’s fine. But have a reason to back it up besides, “He’s got cooties.” That’s the hardest thing to take.

SH: And you have had girls who’ve worked with you before who suddenly decided not to work with you. I’m assuming that hurts even more.

Christian: Sure, but that’s a singular circumstance brought on by outside factors. A new boyfriend, someone who doesn’t like my blog in general. There were a lot of things that went into that that weren’t talked about. Does it piss me off? Yeah, of course it does. Ridiculous? Of course it is. But again, it’s not just that. It’s more than that.

SH: You think it could also be more than that. Maybe homophobia?

Christian: No, I think it’s all peer pressure. It has nothing to do with her personally. We’re talking about a girl who is not a dumb girl. She’s not a brain surgeon. She’s a high school graduate. So, she’s average intelligence at least. So there’s no way she could look at herself and say, “This guy is gonna harm me in any way.” And after 10 times of working together over the years, there’s no way. That situation was strange because there were so many opportunities for her to come to me first. I would have gotten a test the day before our scene. I would have tested the day after. I’m confident and I sleep well at night knowing that I have nothing wrong with me.

SH: How did you make the transition from doing gay porn to straight porn? A lot of guys have found it difficult to make that jump.

Christian: I dated a girl in the business before that. So, I knew some people in the business. When I made the decision that I wanted to be in this business but be in it on the straight side, working with girls which is what I enjoy being with on a personal level, to me it’s all about work ethic, persistence and determination. There are many, many guys who sit back and allow people to call them for work. In other words, you wait for a director to say, “Hey, are you busy on Thursday?” That was never me. Even when I was brand new. I’m going to go out and make calls, and I’m going to send texts. I’m not going to be obnoxious about it. I’m going to be proactive in trying to get my name out there. I’m not going to go volunteer information about myself and my past sex life. I don’t think it’s relevant, first off. And no one else is volunteering any of theirs. I show up with a good AIM test, I do my scene and I go home. I’m not worried about last year or the year before that.

SH: Absolutely no regrets about doing gay porn?

Christian: No, not at all. I’ve never done anything that I don’t want to do.

SH: Anything in your career you do regret?

Christian: No. I’ve never done a scene I never wanted to do. I always know what I’m doing before I do a scene. There’s a couple of things I wish I would’ve had more control over. The last gay scene I ever did, they put me on the box cover. I would rather not that happen. That makes it a lot easier for people to make pot shots. But other than that, there’s nothing else. I’m 34. I do exactly what I want to do all the time.

SH: What aspects of this business do you love and what can you do without?

Christian: I think it’s a personal thing. I love it because it’s got so many positives, personally. In terms of when you work, how much you work, how long you work, the perks of your job. Things like that. To be honest, I’ve always been a people person. I think you can tell by my blog, there’s not a lot of days when I just sit around the house. I get out and about, I have dinner with people. I go out, I go to parties. I’m doing something with somebody most of the time. So this business, for better or worse, people come and go. What I love are just the people. And I love the lifestyle it leads. What I can do without, I don’t know. There’s really nothing that’s going to change.

SH: The blog, December 31st of this year, will that be the end of it?

Christian: Yeah, I think so. It’s what I have planned. I just wanted to do it for a year and see how it went.

SH: How do you think it’s gone so far?

Christian: It’s gone better than I thought. It’s been a lot more popular than I thought. I didn’t think that many people would read it. I really didn’t. It’s got pitfalls, too. I think it’s made me into a different person. I put everybody on a side now. You’re either on my side or the other side.

SH: Do you plan on retiring as a performer any time soon?

Christian: Even if I wanted to, the money you make, there’s no way. The money is good enough to where it helps me protect my future and I can’t change that. I’m not getting out of the business to go work at Kinko’s. You got to understand that I’ve been given somewhat of a lottery ticket in terms of there aren’t many guys that can do what I do. Knowing that, for me to have worked as hard as I have and to put up with as much as I have, and to get to the point where I’m at—I’m in the top five of guys that work the most, easily. Ninety-five percent of dudes are envious of how much I work, especially considering how much shit I take, that it would be ridiculous to give all that up without letting it run its course.

SH: As for relationships in the industry, you said that you don’t date girls in the business. Is that correct?

Christian: No. I do. I just know that it’s hard to be really serious. There’s a lot of problems involved in it. I just stay away from it but it’s tough, because invariably, you end up dating your coworkers because you’re with them. It’s familiarity.

SH: Does it make sense for male performers to be in relationships while they’re still performing?

Christian: It depends on what type of relationship you’re looking for. I think it does emotionally because it’s a lonely business for a lot of male performers. I think it’s good to have somebody you can talk to about things. Really good. Sexual, who knows? I would probably say no just because it puts a lot of strain on your work.

SH: Who has the best set of fake boobs in the business?

Christian: That’s a tough question. I’ve always said that Eva Angelina is pretty damn close to perfect. Whoever her doctor is is pretty damn good. I would probably have to go with Eva Angelina.

SH: So, you’re definitely a tit guy?

Christian: Definitely. One hundred percent.

SH: Who has great natural tits?

Christian: Gianna and Carolyn Reese.

SH: Anything else you’d like to say before we end this interview?

Christian: I hope that I don’t sound like I’m not grateful for being in the position I’m in. And that I’m not a happy person by nature, because I am.